Arthritis Mom

It's easy to think I'm in control. I have routines and schedules and I know what needs to be done. Sometimes I am the one doing it and sometimes I am the one ensuring everyone else helps do it. But I was reminded today that I am really not in control at all.

We are about to go on vacation and I have an appointment with my rheumatologist when I return. It's time for my periodic blood test and I had a few other errands to run in preparation for our trip. So late this morning I set out with the twins and my three stepsons to get everything done. The last time I got my blood drawn I was in and out in about 15 minutes. I was hoping for a similar experience - ha ha that was the first wake up call. Of course that wouldn't happen two times in a row! We sat and waited and waited and waited - the twins getting tired and cranky, the older kids getting hungry and cranky. The repeated questions of "how much longer Jennie?" were repeatedly met with "I really don't know." What I did know was this was going to throw off the rest of our plans for the afternoon.

Finally I was called back for the blood draw. I've done this countless time, I know the routine, it's quick - a little pinch and you are done. The phlebotomist said to stretch out my arm straight and guess what - I couldn't do it! My elbows both hurt that morning and must have been swollen. She asked me again and I just had to laugh. I give up, I'm not in control. I looked at my arms and tried to stretch them straighter and laughed even harder. I told her that my arms were as straight as they could go. She said okay and she managed, and we were all on our way.

This was my reminder in getting ready for this vacation and trying to manage all the details while we are gone - let it go! I am not in control here. I am merely a passenger so it's time to just sit back and make the most out of the ride.